A few days ago I cut my hair shorter than I think most women would ever consider cutting their hair. I have done this often in my life, I am not afraid of having short hair. But the reason I write this today is because it got me thinking about how much we let things define us. I have heard throughout my life “I would never cut that short”, “how could you”, “I don’t think women look good with short hair”, etc. etc. etc. This time I cut my hair because frankly I was tired of having it up in a bun for days and undoing it to find so much hair broken. I have thinning and fine hair so losing any is a big deal. Now with short hair, I can take better care of it continuing my scalp oil treatments and hair masks.
I journaled, with the question in mind, who am I? I don’t let my hair define me but what other things might I be allowing to define me? My glasses… for instance. So I wrote a list of questions to guide me in my explorations of defining who I am. In this train of thought that led to this post I also got thinking about how 2018 taught me so much about myself. I am so much wiser on my own rhythms and flow and so much strength comes from knowing it. If we just lived in a place of knowing ourselves more, we wouldn’t be in a state of resistance that sometimes leads to stress, anxiety, low self-esteem, etc. This year I also came to really appreciate “adulting” because “adulting” truly is just having a better sense of self. “I’m going to pack my lunch and get to bed early because I know myself and don’t want to rush in the morning” “I’m going to pack the diaper bag today so that tomorrow I’m not frustrated trying to get out of the door” So many times when we are “adulting” we are just being better informed of ourselves and all too often “adulting” is seen as a bad thing.